Cardio dayyyyyy 🏃🏼♀️ ...man When I woke up this morning I was soooo bloated just everywhere ugh i hate that time of the month haha I also craveddddd a big ass brownie Sunday and my husband went and got me it lastnight It was so satisfying lmao. But I don’t feel guilty for eating it! And i didn’t gym just to “burn it off” i ate it happily and did my usual thang today it’s no biggie to have a little something here and there guys it is okay. So I went to the gym and ran 3 miles this morning before school and after school it’s time to zumbaa 💃🏼 happy Thursday my loves ♥️
Happy Throwback Thursday! I wanted to share another photo with you guys about this journey I've have been on. The photo on the left was right in the midst of probably some of the deepest depression that I've ever been in. I was in a volatile relationship that was emotionally draining, I was eating as unhealthy as possible including eating gummy bears for dinner every night, and I had zero self-esteem. All of my self-esteem had been totally shattered as a child because all of the people around me including my parents told me that I was worthless, lazy, stupid, fat, and a mistake. I was told over and over again but I would never be anything. My earliest memories of this negative talk started when I was 7 or 8 years old.
I was an absolute wreck. I weighed just over 300 lbs, I was drinking whiskey like it was water, and there was nothing I liked more than nice cigarette. I would sit around and watch television shows like Extreme makeover and The Biggest Loser and fantasize about what it would be like to have a reason to put in effort to get in shape. What I didn't realize at that time was that the decision to be healthy has to be your decision and no one else can make it. More importantly I think that decision has to be predicated on you wanting to make change.
That photo on the left was over 5 years ago and the photo on the right is now. After years of suffering and feeling like I wasn't good enough for anyone else let alone myself I decided that I had to do something. Change.
Everyday that I don't negative self- talk or put myself down or not feel worthy enough is a little victory and every little victory is the start of winning the war!
I'm going to keep saying it... even though our foundation maybe in trauma are destination is not.
My dream is to one day take on the classic physique division and I'm all my blood, sweat and and occasionally throwing up to make this dream a reality. If you want it so badly, then go out there and kill it everyday.
Buenos Diasss ☀️...!!! Ya son más de 5 años desayunándome con mi Batido Herbalife y no lo cambio por nada del mundo. Estoy en mis tercer piso 😆 y debo admitir que estoy en la mejor forma que he podido estar en mi vida, y no pasó por casualidad, pasó por tomar la decisión de hacer los ajustes a un Estilo de Vida Saludable ! Lo mejor de todo es que aún no soy versión terminada, aún sigo en el proceso y día a día Emocionada por alcanzar mi meta!!