What do you do when you hear something that feels like a blade strike to your being. I would normally immediately defend myself, cause a bigger scene, say things off topic or hurtful, feel guilty, use self destructive thoughts and criticism of self, feel horrible, cope with it unhealthy by some means, then go right back to the blade strike. Pattern anyone? Today I went for a walk. I still hurt. But its mine. I own it and I didn't push it on anyone else. I didn't do unhealthy behavior . I just felt it. I am sitting in my backyard feeling the cool air, listening to the sounds around me. Pouring my thoughts on social media. Why? Because I am not alone. And no one wants to feel alone. I am in control of my reactions to things. I can't control what others do. It may sting, it may hurt, but I can control how I deal with it. Practice practice practice. Thanks for following. #sensitive#mindfulness#positivemind#positivethoughts#worthy#trust#gratitude#selflove#selfrespect#positiveenergy#beauty#appreciation#liftyourself#positivevibes#love#heart#mentalhealth
Just about 48 hours in. I struggled a bit a few hours ago because I made some cloud bread and really wanted a ham sandwich, but I remained strong. 12 tomorrow afternoon is almost here and break fast time is soon.